Cancer

In February of last year both of my thyroids were removed because there were lumps that seemed suspicious. I never really, truly believed they could be cancerous but the doctors felt it was too much of a risk to leave them in. It's funny how hard it is to believe that there could be something truly dangerous in your body. I'm not a teenager. I shouldn't feel indestructible.

But there was cancer. A little bit. A very tiny bit. I didn't even need radiation.

After the operation, the scar healed badly so the keloid had to be cut out and restitched in August.

Now, a year later, I'm told I need to have a body scan. I take two thyrogen shots (that I need to pay a thousand dollars for) that's supposed to do something. Then I'm told I'm going to be given a radioiodine pill and then have a body scan. This is to make sure there are no other thyroid cancer cells floating around my body. This pill is so strong (but proven safe they tell me)that I have to sleep in a separate bed for several nights, stay away from young children and flush the toilet three times.

And I'm wondering. Is it truly worth the cost and radiation to find cancer cells if what they found originally is so small?

I'm finding that growing older means we have to really pay attention and learn about how to keep ourselves healthy. I guess we can't just let nature take care of everything anymore. It almost seems as though we have to somehow fight nature. I don't know what to think. Why is it I still feel a bit indestructible? Common sense tells me that's not the case. There are too many problems I'm facing now with diabetes, cholesterol, and now thyroid. Ah well.... I'll leave it to tomorrow.